First off, I’m not gay. I believe it’s biblically wrong to be a homosexual. I follow the Bible. Therefore, I am not gay.
Secondly, a few of my friends have struggled with homosexuality or are currently struggling with it. As I seek counsel on how to help them the best way that I can, the issue of homosexuality is on my mind. I’ve been trying to understand their feelings and what they are struggling with. One of the ways I deal with things is through writing.
Therein, the origin of this blog and the poem that follows.
Gay, Lord?
Satan stole my joy and left me gay
Although I’m not happy about it
Instead, I feel miserable
As I try to grapple with these feelings inside of me
Satan stole my joy and made me gay
I blame him for this
And I cry in shame
Trying to figure out how this happened
Satan stole my joy and now I’m gay
Or am I
I’m not quite sure
One day I think I am
The next I really don’t know
Satan stole my joy and I don’t know what to say
I don’t think anybody understands
I try to read the Bible
And even pray
But nothing seems to change
I want my joy back right now today
No matter what it takes to get it
I feel so alone here in this place
I’m lost and wish this was finished
